can things be back to how they were at the starting of the yr.......or back to how they were in 6 si????i know it's impossible.....but i still carry hope.......in search of everything to make my dreams come true.....just that things are always not going the way u want them to be......going to PL is actually a very bad decision.......i just feel lonely although i seem to be enjoyig myself in sch.....all my close friends are all scattered singapore and it will take 10 wekks later to see them again......and each time we mit up.....not everybody can make it......it's just so difficult for mi to put this friendships down.....and i really feel the most carefree and happy during those times....and now.....sch work is toiling up......and i dun even have the desire to do my hw let alone go to sch and spend half or more of my day there...........it's just very fustrating.....i duun even noe what is the damn problem with mi......i mean.......i can just feel angry at one moment then feel lyk crying the nxt.....it's just too crazy........and i can't really handle it.......i am lyk trying to curb my feelings.....because it's no use spoiling everyone's mood when they are so happy and then because of mi.......they are feeling unhappy.....it's just unfair for them.......and i am sry to those ppl if i spoiled ur moods cos i noe i can be very irritating........well.......i wonder how can i survive this for 4 yrs.....hopefully things can turn out better......yeah....bye